everyone is flying off somewhere new. going to new places, doing new things. meeting new people. new relationships. new networks. new friends. new rooms. new professors. new whatever... new... new... everything is so new...
but that's what life is about isn't it? its always like that. it always will be.
meh. i love my soba people to death. i would never admit it on normal circumstances, but what would i be without you guys? (i sound like such a wei yun here) we are such idiots you know? combining our powers to do the craziest things. i feel so manleh because i am not very good at expressing emotions like this (as in writing, i am no writer yo), but i will try my best in this particular entry. :)
meh i never really thought about this before, but hey, it had to come sooner or later i suppose.
we all have new lives now huh? i remember during orientation they were talking about things changing. relationships between your friends back home will change when you meet them once again. people will change. people whom we were once close too we may not be close to anymore the next time we meet and so on.
but as immature as it may sound, i don't want that to change. i want to meet my soba people, and then we talk like none of us ever left. sometimes its so difficult to let go of stuff. you feel like sharing every single unimportant detail of your life with everyone (which I suppose is what blogs are for, but whatever)
it all contradicts. some say you may not get along with your old friends the next time you see them, some say that things will still be the same, or at least as similar as it can be. i suppose the best friends are the ones whom you don't see for 20 over years and the next time you see each other, you just click, like that 20 year gap never existed. i really hope that this is the case for my buddies and i, because who else would i share stupid stories about throwing things out the window, never admitting to really random stuff, people who make our hearts pound and so on?
who else would stand by me during my time of need? who else would drag me out of a bar whenever i get moody and punch some guy in the face because he insulted my best friend? who else would sit by me during my 24 hours in police custody because i broke some dude's arm because he said my buddy was... whatever (i am only talking hypothetically here, please do not break the arms of random dudes) i would certainly beat the crap out of anyone who hurts my buddies in any way. maybe its because i would do such a thing for them, i never thought... would they do the same for me? im pretty sure they would.
wei yun is in london now. i hope she is happy. im certainly happy for her. *so proud!* :) i feel like some really bad friend because i didn't give her anything as a goodbye present (i gave her a lot of other crappy things though ;) haha) and sometimes i feel guilty because she buys such expensive gifts for me, like copics. and all i can think of buying her is books, but she reads so much i wouldnt know what book to get her anyway. somehow i think, hey, really retarded incidents weren't enough to tear us apart, what is 5000 miles compared to that craptastic episode? my partner in crime! *so proud*
oh mai gawd. jo-hannah. she is such a darling you know? she makes me feel like an idiot and so unaware of things. SHE SHOULD BE HERE WITH ME, TO CONVINCE ME TO TALK PROPERLY AND ALSO SHE DESERVES IT SO BADLY. i really am indebted to her. whenever i need to rant about certain things, she's the one who gives the most "garang" answers. i should really listen to her huh. i am such an idiot. and a coward. an idiotic coward. and i keep saying this so i think she is expecting some action here. so yeah, i will try my best to suck it up, throw away my pride and go. hahaha. MEH. HOW CAN I EVER REPAY YOUR KINDNESS. *guilt ridden* anytime you need a favour, just remember that i am only an email away ;)
shin dee, my waifu for laifu. to think that i considered her a douche bag in form 1 makes me feel really, really bad. i can't thank her enough for all the joy she has brought in my life. she is so sweet. remember dee, don't take candy from strangers, look both ways before crossing the road and don't run around with a pair of scissors. dee, you are so kind an compassionate. don't ever compare yourself to others okay? whatever you do, you do for yourself, for whatever will make you happy and will not hurt others, or yourself in the process. and no, killing yourself for the sake of humanity is not a good thing. because i will cry. everyone will cry. and yeah, we would probably cry our own weight in tears (50 litres of water is a lot yo) will i ever eat my shoe? hmmm.... a mystery of life that has yet to be solved. *hugs*
luo yi. i know i was a douche bag, and yes i am sorry. without her, my life would not be the average one that it is now. thank you for enforcing the fact that my life is average. fmylife and mylifeisgood moments come and go, and average out our lives so that it is a normal, average... life *pun very much so intended* good moments and bad moments happen, and that's what make our lives they way they are. i don't know if she knows that she thought me some really valuable lessons on life. that we are all special in our own way and we will have to keep pushing through whether we like it or not.
joee's friendship is like this crazy loop. we almost never see each other and yet we can get along so well, it's almost creepy. i mean, we have only been in the same class like... twice in our lives. the fact that joee always says that she wants to be in the same class as me makes me feel kind of warm and fuzzy inside. we talk about random stuff, from download limits to anime to english to boys... SHE STILL HAS MY STD 3 DOGGY YOU KNOW THAT? *so proud* lol i wonder if i signed it. hmmm... haha oh well.
my sexay susan will always be sexay. SHE SO KAWAII LAR. and random. and funny. i can never get enough of her susan-ness. she is such a sweet thing. LOL when she so garang contact me when wei yun told her about what happened during grad. so kay poh la you! hahaha. meh, you're such a great person. thanks for being awesome. i wish you the very best in life, kangaroos love you, darling, ans so do I <3
li yun... li yun. where do i start. there is no place really, from std 3 to now. we are like... HOMIES YO. FOR LIFE. She's such a hime, but without the hime-ness, li yun would never be the li yun i know and love. that's why i love her. from the days with xiang yih to now. STUDY HARD HOR. i plan to visit europe one day. to stand in front of the churches in awe and just have my breath taken away from the spectacular beauty of 18th century architecture. HEY HEY. you want to backpack around paris and prague? :) li yun has always been there, *another kay poh, want to know about all the useless details in my life, i tell you lar, but you must come on skype or msn first :)* I love you. I really do.
i really do hope that we can see each other and talk like there was no 20 year gap since our last meeting. like when i see my mum and her old school friend in calgary. when they saw each other they hugged, and then proceeded to talk into the wee hours of the morning every night when we were in calgary. just like we did! haha, some things never change. and i hope that the bond that holds us together is one of them.
best of luck to all of you. i love you to pieces! we should make pie one day. a SUPER SOBA PIE~
with all my love
ning